At the early stages of structured eating and recovery it is best to avoid trigger foods. Stick to foods you feel comfortable eating.
- Bulimiahelp.org
It IS OK to still restrict to some degree at the first stages of recovery. I can’t even BEGIN to explain how uncomfortable your stomach will feel. I felt like I had little men in my tummy pushing out outward on it as hard as they could. Always felt like my stomach was going to explode at any moment. REMEMBER: It is JUST temporary! IT WILL go away. Here I am, two years out of the treatment facility I went to (just one week inpatient, 1.5 weeks outpatient where I just wasn’t sleeping there and then 1.5 weeks tapering off and not going every day and even doing dinners at home towards the end) and I was just thinking the other day at how my weight hasnt fluctuated like it has for the past 10 years. It feels pretty sweet. :) I am not completely over the b/p ing yet and really do need to make the effort to start trying at this really hard again now that I have the time to do so.
I just get so confused with the way my stupid brain works at times. It’s like, I know things I could do for outlets (call my friends, family, go for a walk) but lately I just havent cared to do so! I NEED the MOTIVATION or tips/tricks to STOP before I start my binge! I need inspiration. What is sad is that I SHOULD have taht inspriation…my friends that love me, my family that supports me, the fact that a girl i met in treatment passed away a year ago and the fact that I have a man that adores me…all of me…all of the good AND the bad. He said one of the things he really likes about me is how I show the good and the bad and I am not afraid to put myself out there. That is something he is working on currently. He likes how I show everything and not just ‘what I am selling.’ It’s sooo refreshing.
Why can’t I get motivated!? What in GODS name is it going to take!!??
